I am not ready....or am I?

Well as most of you know already we are having a baby---but not just any baby oh no it is a Big Mack! I am having a GI-Joe a little Nick or as we now call him Big Mack! Some of you may know that I have not been my self during this pregnancy. To say that I am Tired would be a complete understatement. Before we knew we were having a boy I would always tell Nick that it had to be a boy because I feel like I have been hit by a Mack Truck!! Well Now that we know we are having a boy it is completely true because we are Naming him Makio but will be calling him Mack. Well it turns out that there are a lot of Nick names that go with Mack (we are a big nick name family) so we have all sorts of fun.

I am starting to think am I ready for this? I have no idea what I will do with a boy, but I am so grateful for the chance. Life is always changing and as I have struggled with this question, AM I READY, I have been comforted by the changing of the season, from summer to fall. I am so grateful to live in an area with distinct seasons. I have not been ready for it to get cold and I have been dreading it, But as the holidays come and I see the excitement in my kids eyes for Halloween, they could care less that it is cold in fact Skyler is looking forward to snow, I start to forget about the cold and I too get excited. I may not feel ready now for another baby in our home but just like the changing of the seasons I know that I will be when our little bundle gets here. When you have your first you think to yourself "nothing can beat this" then your second comes and you see the instant connection between your first and second and then you think "nothing can beat this" I know that my girls will be such good big sisters and I so look forward to watching that connection that I know will be there.
sorry that I have gone off on a tangent, it is so not like me...but like I said before I have just not been my self with this pregnancy, but no fear I am have way there!